Wednesday, November 29, 2006


I've been doing some reading recently for a Psychology essay based around the concept of self.

And I thought I'd share with you 2 quotes that I picked out:

'The feeling that one is important to a significant other is essential to the feeling of self-worth.'

'High self-esteem people seek growth, development and improvement by pushing themselves to the limits, in order to discover and exercise their capabilities. It is only in this way that an individual comes most fully alive.'

Tuesday, November 28, 2006


Homerton bar was packed with 10 or so pool fans last night for a massive pool team victory. 7-2!

Going into the xmas holidays division 2A now looks like this:

Team P W L F A Pts
Christ's 4 4 0 24 12 36
Homerton 3 3 0 18 9 27
Corpus 3 2 1 17 10 23
Robinson 3 2 1 15 12 21
St John's 4 1 3 14 22 17
Fitz 3 1 2 13 14 16
King's 3 1 2 11 16 14
Trinity 4 0 4 11 25 11
Trinity 1 0 1 3 6 3

So it's a all to play for after xmas. Top pundits are already claiming it's a 2-horse race but are sitting on the fence as to who's favourite.

I'm also looking forward to making my debut for Cambridge Pool team tonight. In the last week or so I seem to have found myself submerged in a world dominated by pool and I love it.

Monday, November 27, 2006

A post for close friends and those who want to get to know me better.

So why have I felt bored of the blog recently? I think it’s lost a bit of depth and purpose. I’ve simply been referring to stuff that’s been going on, just scratching the surface. Today I could tell you about recent hassles with the buses or playing football with a tennis ball or too much xmas stuff in November. But today I feel like I want to go a bit deeper. All that surface scratching stuff doesn't really give a fair representation of my self.

So if you want to join me, I’m going to try and push myself to be a bit vulnerable, and be a bit honest for a change.

For a few months now I’ve felt distracted. God’s not been top of my list of priorities and I’ve just been going through the motions. Part of that may have come from the responsibility of leadership, possibly focussing more on simply sorting out events for the diary. But leaving the excuses behind, I’ve also made a couple of more obvious mistakes, which have played on my mind.

Yet on Saturday night at the Fusion Weekend in Oxford, I received some prayer. They were spot on words of encouragement and hope which I needed to hear. And for the next half hour or so God was the only thing on my mind. Nothing could distract me. I jumped about without worrying what others thought. I was totally thankful. Thankful for a fresh start; thankful for future hope; thankful that I’m free to make mistakes; thankful that I don’t have to do it alone; thankful that there is no pressure to perform; thankful that God is big enough to deal with everything that worries me.

If only that feeling could last longer than half an hour. But Monday comes and I’m back in Cambridge, back to the challenges of everyday life. Cambridge can at times be a tough place of extreme expectations, tiredness and over-thinking. And no matter how hard I try, I will continue to stuff up and make mistakes. But that is the beauty of my God. He’s dealt with it all already! He has no disillusions about me.

Someone randomly wound their car window down the other day and asked me, ‘Why are you happy?’ (Random eh!) I laughed it off and didn’t give an answer. I didn’t really want to share what had subconsciously given me a cheeky grin as I walked down the road. But deep down, if I’m honest, the true reason was that (no matter what was actually in my head at that moment!) it comes from regularly accepting the fresh starts that are infinitely offered to me.

Normal sarchastic grumbling resumes tomorrow.

Monday, November 20, 2006

32 - An Epic Day of Pool

Yesterday I played 32 competitive games of pool. I was playing in the Cambridge University Pool Tournament and remarkably managed to reach the final. I should have lost in the first round but my opponent fluffed it up and I was thankful for another opportunity. Then I really played some of my best ever pool to knock out 2 members of the Cambridge Uni 1st Team winning 5-2 and 6-1. In the final I played the captain of the Uni 1st Team and lost 7-0! oops. But a really good day for me. I won some money but most importantly I now might be considered to play in the Cambridge team. Exciting.

Homerton pool team also played last night at Fitzwilliam College and it was a match of high drama. We were 4-1 down but sensationally against-all-odds turned it round to win 5-4. The decisive frame went to the black and was won by Mark with a terrific long shot along the cushion. Cue wild celebrations!

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Nemo's Found AGAIN

It'll amuse those of you from Herne Bay and other gap year friends that once again I'm digging out my little Nemo talk. I went over the clip and song again this morning and was amazed by how much the little talk means to me - like, I actually had water droplets in the base of my eye. I'm using it in cell tonight and have butterflies swirming round that it will be effective. Prayers for this would be 'Totally awesome duuuuuuude.'

Sunday, November 12, 2006

I can't know the Truth but I can know the Truth

So a few comments on this statement that I've been thinking about recently:

I can't know the Truth: My brain can't understand everything! And it will never be able to understand everything and was never designed to! I don't know correct answers. I can only offer my unique perspectives on the world built from my unique experiences.

But I can know the Truth: But I can get to know and build a friendship with the boss and creator of the universe, who is Truth.

Friday, November 10, 2006

Please excuse me while I just ponder a few thoughts

Last night I lead through a discussion on the hugely important question on, 'Did Jesus rise from the dead?' Now practically it all went well, but yet I have no idea really how it actually went. What I mean is, how do I know whether people enjoyed themselves? How do I know whether people's views were challenged? How do I know whether people didn't just go away thinking Pete's a bit ... whatever?
Does anyone else feel like this when they lead things? I've never really done much of this before and think what I'm learning is it's so much easier to be on the other side of the fence and criticise and think about how you could do things so much better. Like being a bit funnier or cooler etc. Yet when I've come to actually leading things I haven't been able to be funny or cool etc. cos I'm too worried about getting the main points across. Maybe it's just something that comes with experience, and when I relax into it more? Or maybe it really doesn't matter?
Anyone got any advice out there?

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Are you a fan of facts?

Did you know?

That EVERY whole number can be expressed as the sum of 4 square numbers.

We nearly proved it today but our lecturer said it would take too long. So you'll just have to take my word for it.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Fantastic Feeling

I had so much fun at 'The Feeling' last night. The best bit was quite simply singing along at the top of my voice but other unexpected highlights included a surprise rendition of 'Video killed the radio star' and a catchy song off their next album.
I'm pleased to report that 'The Feeling' have a good live performance and got the crowd involved well. The scissor kicking of the drum cymbals was fun as well!

I wouldn't be doing my journalistic blog job properly though if I didn't warn you about the support act called Luke Toms. He was this guy pictured below with the top hat and had a stupid moustache. Now, I do not have a musical ear, but even I could tell that he could not sing! It was painful. However when he wasn't singing, the songs and band were actually quite good. So if they ever make it big after his singing's been altered by a computer it'd be a travisty ... but a realistic possibility of a travisty.

Anyways a good fun 8 out of 10 for 'The Feeling.' We now await eagerly the all important second album.